Did the effects of nicotine include lying?
If you're going to tell people you stopped smoking/quit smoking, then do it.
Do not lie about.
Seems like that's a trend today.
Next thing you know, our president will be doing it too....
But wait, he already has.
SMH.
Funny how
True this quote really is...
“Words do not express thoughts very well. They always become a little different immediately after they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish.”
-Hermann Hesse
“Words do not express thoughts very well. They always become a little different immediately after they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish.”
-Hermann Hesse
I believe
In you.
And If anyone is going to achieve anything, I know it's going to be you, Carmela.
Keep pushing baby, you're doing so well.
I'm proud of everything you do.
UCSB right ?
;)
And If anyone is going to achieve anything, I know it's going to be you, Carmela.
Keep pushing baby, you're doing so well.
I'm proud of everything you do.
UCSB right ?
;)
not sick
so im officially healthy again.
after a week of sinus infection and a week of suffering from an allergic reaction
im good to go.
Time to hit the ground running.....
and find a job lol.
after a week of sinus infection and a week of suffering from an allergic reaction
im good to go.
Time to hit the ground running.....
and find a job lol.
Isn't she wonderful ?
"For once in my life I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once, unafraid, I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
For once I can touch what my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Would make my dreams come true
For once in my life I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once, I have something I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore
For once, I can say, this is mine, you can't take it
As long as I know I have love, I can make it
For once in my life, I have someone who needs me"
Mr. Stevie Wonder.
Damnnnnn
I wish this damn sinus infection would hurry it's way out of my system.
Feels like she's taking her sweet ass time...
My throat isn't a vacation spot damnit !
blahhh
Feels like she's taking her sweet ass time...
My throat isn't a vacation spot damnit !
blahhh
December.
Was such a loving month for us
:)
"Half of what you see is only half of me
I'm Passionate for the rest Especially
when the other half is the best of me
Best bet, best shot, best aim, my best gamble
I'll hold the cards and save all my ammo
For ill never know when ill be tested for survival
After all losing an essential component
Means it comes without revival, don't it ?
When something becomes that important
And you no longer worry and complain
Cuz I was like a poor man but the pain
wasn't in my stomach
And for a moment,my hunger was my heartache.
After all losing that essential component
Makes it hard for me to smile,So happiness. I just wont front it
When something becomes that great,
I'm going to fill up and never admit
That there was too much on my plate
Cuz damn it I was hungry
And you filled me up,
So I don't wanna be the one walking away
With an empty cup."
:)
"Half of what you see is only half of me
I'm Passionate for the rest Especially
when the other half is the best of me
Best bet, best shot, best aim, my best gamble
I'll hold the cards and save all my ammo
For ill never know when ill be tested for survival
After all losing an essential component
Means it comes without revival, don't it ?
When something becomes that important
And you no longer worry and complain
Cuz I was like a poor man but the pain
wasn't in my stomach
And for a moment,my hunger was my heartache.
After all losing that essential component
Makes it hard for me to smile,So happiness. I just wont front it
When something becomes that great,
I'm going to fill up and never admit
That there was too much on my plate
Cuz damn it I was hungry
And you filled me up,
So I don't wanna be the one walking away
With an empty cup."
Non-Smoking section
Go to the American spirit's(cigarretes) website
http://www.%20nascigs.%20com/Default.%20aspx
when you put in your age(if under 21) it will either say
"Please, if you don’t smoke, don’t start. We don’t even encourage smokers to smoke more."
Or
"I’m sorry, this is something that we take very seriously.................so we can’t let you in. Smoking cigarettes, even natural ones, can lead to serious health problems."
SMH....
its pretty bad when the cigarrete company is telling you not to smoke.
lol.
And still people will continue to believe that this horrible habit is something to be considered cool or fashionable.
Poor poor people, they'll just never have that common sense.
http://www.%20nascigs.%20com/Default.%20aspx
when you put in your age(if under 21) it will either say
"Please, if you don’t smoke, don’t start. We don’t even encourage smokers to smoke more."
Or
"I’m sorry, this is something that we take very seriously.................so we can’t let you in. Smoking cigarettes, even natural ones, can lead to serious health problems."
SMH....
its pretty bad when the cigarrete company is telling you not to smoke.
lol.
And still people will continue to believe that this horrible habit is something to be considered cool or fashionable.
Poor poor people, they'll just never have that common sense.
Sacrifices
Since day one we've made them.
Sacrifices.
So many Sacrifices.
But for what ?
For each other ?
For ourselves ?
Maybe both.
I'd like to think we did them for ourselves, but I know we do them for each other.
Hell, maybe deep down we really want to do it for ourselves.
And don't get me wrong, I don't want this to seem like I feel as if these sacrifices have been difficult for me, or you to make, because I know for certain that if there was anything you needed me to sacrifice for you or our well being, then I'd do it without hesitation....
What I'm really trying to say is, I find it very fascinating that we do these such things...
And how love can make you a better person.
I'm truly appreciative of all the things you've given up to make this all work.
And It's funny because just us being together in itself is a sacrifice.
Think about it.
I love you beautiful.
And I wouldn't change a thing.
Sacrifices.
So many Sacrifices.
But for what ?
For each other ?
For ourselves ?
Maybe both.
I'd like to think we did them for ourselves, but I know we do them for each other.
Hell, maybe deep down we really want to do it for ourselves.
And don't get me wrong, I don't want this to seem like I feel as if these sacrifices have been difficult for me, or you to make, because I know for certain that if there was anything you needed me to sacrifice for you or our well being, then I'd do it without hesitation....
What I'm really trying to say is, I find it very fascinating that we do these such things...
And how love can make you a better person.
I'm truly appreciative of all the things you've given up to make this all work.
And It's funny because just us being together in itself is a sacrifice.
Think about it.
I love you beautiful.
And I wouldn't change a thing.
Imagine
"Faith is the commitment of one's consciousness to beliefs for which one has no sensory evidence or rational proof. A mystic is a man who treats his feelings as tools of cognition. Faith is the equation of feeling with knowledge. "
-Ayn Rand
The Fountainhead
"I'm glad some people have that faith. I don't have that faith. If there is a God, a caring God, then we have to figure he's done an extraordinary job of making a very cruel world."
-Dave Matthews
"I don’t believe in God. My god is patriotism. Teach a man to be a good citizen and you have solved the problem of life."
-Andrew Carnegie
-Ayn Rand
The Fountainhead
"I'm glad some people have that faith. I don't have that faith. If there is a God, a caring God, then we have to figure he's done an extraordinary job of making a very cruel world."
-Dave Matthews
"I don’t believe in God. My god is patriotism. Teach a man to be a good citizen and you have solved the problem of life."
-Andrew Carnegie
What more can I say?
I love you, and "it ain't hard to tell."
It seems silly how much I compliment you, or even say I love you.
Almost every other sentence goes something like "babe. . . you're so beautiful."
Sincerity.
That's what's behind my words. Not just "icecream."
That's what's behind my words. Not just "icecream."
And that's all the time.
You are beautiful, even more beautiful than I could ever give you credit for.
But I like to stress it as much as I can before annoying you to death.
I'm in a sort of daze. Always in "aw," always amazed.
I admire you.
Integrity And Trust.
That's what guides our relationship.
I think everyone is aware of how much I worry about you.....
More than anything else though, I trust you.
1300 miles will not stop neither you or I from being faithful or from doing the right thing.
We are closest when we are far.
We are closest when we are far.
I embrace you with care, sensitive yet not fragile.
You possess the biggest heart.
That's the paradox.
Love.
It's truly an incredible feeling.
A feeling of being needed.
The needing to be felt.
The greatest numbness is from this buzz.
The addiction from your love.
And that's all I ever feel now.
I take pride in you and I.
Knowing that we have your parent's support is comforting.
For your mother to realize how much we affect one another.
How much we truly care for each other.
How much we support each other.
It's great to know, and i'm still not over it....
The Closer
I get until it's time to fill out those college applications, the harder and more confused things become. I don't know for sure what i'm going to major in, but the bottome line, for now atleast, is to get into one of those two "Dream" colleges of mine. It just feels like everytime I sit down and do some research, I realise just how hard it really is to get into UCLA or USC. Maybe I haven't planned well enough. Maybe I should've taken the SAT again last year. Maybe I should've actually gave 100%. But then again, aside from that ONE person, it's not like I got any help either. All I can really do is hit everything hard this coming semester, harder than ever, actually being the best student I can be. I've been busting my ass thus far, yes, especially last semester, but I know that there is more in me.
It's not going to be easy. But noone ever said it was.
I'm up for it though. Afterall, this is a big part of my dreams.
In the mean time, i'm going to enjoy the summer to the fullist.
Because so far, this has probably been the best summer.
I plan to keep it that way.
It's not going to be easy. But noone ever said it was.
I'm up for it though. Afterall, this is a big part of my dreams.
In the mean time, i'm going to enjoy the summer to the fullist.
Because so far, this has probably been the best summer.
I plan to keep it that way.
"Get out of my Brain"
Sarcastically, this is what she says. Sometimes I feel the same way.
It's been a while, and there's really been no REAL reason for me not posting anything, I guess except, pure laziness.
Either way, I'm happy to say that,by the end of this week, I will only have 1 more semester of High School. Sounds good just thinking about it. It really does. Actually, it even feels good.
Time to "better" myself right ?
Time to go on to do "bigger" things.
Time to make a "man" out of myself.
And with all the excitement of graduation looming above a lot of our heads, the time you've been waiting for for Four years now is finally here, the realization of the choices we now have to make with our lives scares us. It scares all of us. Hell, it's still scaring 90% of Juniors in College and it's for damn sure still haunting the people of past generations. Most will generalize the time after High school and Pre-college as the time when people decide what they're going to do with their lives. The reality is, MOST of us will never have a choice that we've set in stone for ourselves. We'll never be able to say "hey, this is what I'm going to do and there's no other choices for me."
Notice I say, "I'm going to do" instead of "I want to do."
Fact is, we're afraid of doing what we want to do.
We take the easy way out of things, its human nature.
It's just what we do. And if we can find an easier way to go about life then we'll do it,
even at the mercy of our dreams.
People disregard what life is about.
People have no regard for their dreams.
And it's a pity.
If you enjoy cutting hair, designing clothes, or even being an artist, and you're good at it, don't let the thought of a less lucrative paying job deter you from what you'd love to do. If you can do those things, then why sell out to become (I.E) a nurse when you know that's really not what you want to do.
I guess what I'm really saying is,
"Don't let a paycheck come before your dreams."
There's so much more that I want to say, but I'll just have to tie that into another post for another day.
It's been a while, and there's really been no REAL reason for me not posting anything, I guess except, pure laziness.
Either way, I'm happy to say that,by the end of this week, I will only have 1 more semester of High School. Sounds good just thinking about it. It really does. Actually, it even feels good.
Time to "better" myself right ?
Time to go on to do "bigger" things.
Time to make a "man" out of myself.
And with all the excitement of graduation looming above a lot of our heads, the time you've been waiting for for Four years now is finally here, the realization of the choices we now have to make with our lives scares us. It scares all of us. Hell, it's still scaring 90% of Juniors in College and it's for damn sure still haunting the people of past generations. Most will generalize the time after High school and Pre-college as the time when people decide what they're going to do with their lives. The reality is, MOST of us will never have a choice that we've set in stone for ourselves. We'll never be able to say "hey, this is what I'm going to do and there's no other choices for me."
Notice I say, "I'm going to do" instead of "I want to do."
Fact is, we're afraid of doing what we want to do.
We take the easy way out of things, its human nature.
It's just what we do. And if we can find an easier way to go about life then we'll do it,
even at the mercy of our dreams.
People disregard what life is about.
People have no regard for their dreams.
And it's a pity.
If you enjoy cutting hair, designing clothes, or even being an artist, and you're good at it, don't let the thought of a less lucrative paying job deter you from what you'd love to do. If you can do those things, then why sell out to become (I.E) a nurse when you know that's really not what you want to do.
I guess what I'm really saying is,
"Don't let a paycheck come before your dreams."
There's so much more that I want to say, but I'll just have to tie that into another post for another day.
Liberally Conservative ?
I'm always trying to look at life in the most liberal way possible.
As far as what your sexual orientation is, religion, or what have you...
I could care less, regardless of what I follow and what I hold high to myself.
It's your life ! I know you've all heard it before.
"Live for the moment."
Ehh,
I guess that sums up what my mentality has been.
I'm all for having fun.
After all smiling, laughing, and just being Care-free is what makes life enjoyable right ?
And for the most part, I'm always smiling or laughing.
All in all, I'm a pretty high spirited guy.
Though enjoying myself and being happy is on the "top of my list," I still find it hard to do those two things that come easiest to me. I catch myself always avoiding the risks, afraid to try something new; mostly because of what I've seen and what I've been threw personally, not because of my fear for making a mistake, but for the fear of it becoming something far more than enjoying myself. I guess me being in a relationship has made me realise this more in myself.
She is that free spirited person that I've always hoped to be, and I love that.
Because of her, I'm trying harder to reach that myself.
When I get asked for advice, or when I feel the need to give it, I'm always telling people to live life a certain way, the way that I see that it should be lived. And though I'm telling these people these advices, they're really views that I myself are still struggling to follow.
See, it's hard to give helpful advice, but even harder to follow it yourself.
But as long as you believe in it, then others will too.
Advice should always be used as a guideline, a way to stay focused, a way to psych yourself into shit.
Don't ever take some one's words of wisdom, or some one's wishes as a demotivator.
Always take what people have to say in consideration, but don't always take it to heart.
You'll always come out benefited that way.
As far as what your sexual orientation is, religion, or what have you...
I could care less, regardless of what I follow and what I hold high to myself.
It's your life ! I know you've all heard it before.
"Live for the moment."
Ehh,
I guess that sums up what my mentality has been.
I'm all for having fun.
After all smiling, laughing, and just being Care-free is what makes life enjoyable right ?
And for the most part, I'm always smiling or laughing.
All in all, I'm a pretty high spirited guy.
Though enjoying myself and being happy is on the "top of my list," I still find it hard to do those two things that come easiest to me. I catch myself always avoiding the risks, afraid to try something new; mostly because of what I've seen and what I've been threw personally, not because of my fear for making a mistake, but for the fear of it becoming something far more than enjoying myself. I guess me being in a relationship has made me realise this more in myself.
She is that free spirited person that I've always hoped to be, and I love that.
Because of her, I'm trying harder to reach that myself.
When I get asked for advice, or when I feel the need to give it, I'm always telling people to live life a certain way, the way that I see that it should be lived. And though I'm telling these people these advices, they're really views that I myself are still struggling to follow.
See, it's hard to give helpful advice, but even harder to follow it yourself.
But as long as you believe in it, then others will too.
Advice should always be used as a guideline, a way to stay focused, a way to psych yourself into shit.
Don't ever take some one's words of wisdom, or some one's wishes as a demotivator.
Always take what people have to say in consideration, but don't always take it to heart.
You'll always come out benefited that way.
Just
the thought of that smile.
The one that's different from all the others.
The one that only comes out, when I'm around.
The one that I can't help but to reciprocate back.
Just the thought of that smile.
It makes me whole all over again.
It excites me in the calmest of ways.
It never gets tiresome.
Just the thought of that smile.
Gives me reassurance of how beautiful love is.
Gives me a dose of serenity.
Gives the sun a run for it's money.
Just the thought of that smile.
Pulls the wool over my eyes to all of less importance.
Pulls me up when shit seems bleak.
Pulls all the weight off my shoulders.
Just the thought of that smile........
It makes me happy.
Its funny
How two people know somethings wrong,
and know how to fix it. But dont.
What are you waiting for ?
An other apology that you'll just ignore ?
You're inseperable.
Because even threw all the bullshit you cant stop talking to each other.
You're always talking about her.
Still upset by it.
Mend what you've both broken, and you'll both come out better than before.
and know how to fix it. But dont.
What are you waiting for ?
An other apology that you'll just ignore ?
You're inseperable.
Because even threw all the bullshit you cant stop talking to each other.
You're always talking about her.
Still upset by it.
Mend what you've both broken, and you'll both come out better than before.
Living for the masses.
What is living when you have no faith?
What is waking up, if you wish you were asleep ?
What is always wondering, when you're afraid to know ?
Is it routine that makes us comfortable, or uncertainty that's never gone away ?
What is fun when you're all alone ?
Does drinking away all of your burdens really make you less worried ?
Does the feeling of being wanted, make you more of a person ?
Did the last simple comment of recognition from someone really mean anything if you don't believe it yourself ?
When did love without trust become the norm ?
Why haven't we payed attention to the little things ?
Why haven't we noticed what's been in hindsight the whole time ?
Threw all the chaos,
all the nonsense,
all the ignorance,
and all the loss,
Life is beautiful.
Life is learning,
and living is asking questions.
Uncertainty is all we know,
and knowing, is what we live for.
It's been
Exactly one month since I came back.
Everyday I wish I was still there.
It was honestly, the BEST week of my life.
It was honestly, the BEST week of my life.
Nothing but laughs and smiles from us.
I miss you Carmela.
You're the best.
Californiacation
For 11 years now, i've been staring out the same window, seeing the same people, same trees, and breathing the same air. I feel like i'm in an imaginary world. A world where all people care about is who you know.
Well, here, I haven't known anybody. I don't even know my family, and nobody knows me. Up until recently, nobody anywhere knew me. That's the "real me" atleast. Everyone has their own assumptions as to what kind of person I am, they are wrong, but I don't blame them. I have never let anyone in. Nobody's gotten close to me. I've grown up virtually alone.
An outcast by choice.
For a while now all i've wanted was to get as far away from this place as possible. I decided my destination would be California. But why California ?
Idk, I guess it started as me just wanting to live in a more active area.
But as time went on, I realized that it was perfect.
This small North Houston Suburb was, and never will be, enough for me. There's nothing here that appeals to me, especially not the people. In the past couple of years i've come to notice that there's nobody that can relate to me.. It's as if im being suppressed, even suffucated, by this small community. My dreams are ignored, my thoughts unnoticed, and my voice unheard.
It's gotten so bad even, that all I ever think about now is how i'm going to leave or me trying to find the fastest route out of here.
Everyday the train passes by my house.
Everyday planes fly overhead.
Everyday planes fly overhead.
It's ironic.
My way out, is right outside my window.
My way out, is right outside my window.
This whole time, I could see it.
A symbol for my desire to leave
but my inability to go.
I just know that California is right for me.
She is right for me.
We're perfect together.
And she know's it too.
Matter of fact, she's waiting,
Anxious for my arrival.
Just as I am for her.
My platform.
For only she,
can support my dreams.
So close, but yet so far.
As time ticks away I get closer.
But the closer you get to something,
the more you want it.
Take it a Step Further
I've always said, to not just think outside the box,
but also, to LIVE outside the box.
Meaning, to hold less stock in comformity and society's agenda, and instead making your own. But on an even deeper level, break free of all insecurites, whether they be physical, social, or emotional. Don't be afraid of pursuing your interests and what's on the outside, but rather be afraid of holding your self back and only seeing the same results for the rest of your youth.
When you lay down at night and reflect on your day, you should be satisfied with the decisions you've made. If you can begin to accept that what you're doing is indeed positive and that with each passing day you're getting closer to where you want to be, than you can truly be happy.
Peace within, and self acceptance, is the ultimate way to stay happy.
People are scared to grow up, scared to do something with their lives, scared to make a necessary change. I'm not just talking about young people here either, everyone all the way up to our politicians are afraid of their own intuitions. That fear, is what causes turmoil. Fear leads to doubt, and doubt leads to hopelessness. We're always going for the safe choice, the one thats going to make things easier for us all, instead of going with what we really feel is right because we're afraid of making a mistake. Funny thing is, the only real mistake, is not going with your intuition, for your intuition is the only thing you can depend on. It's never wrong. If you choose to go with a safe route instead of the one you think is best, then you'll always question yourself, wondering if things would be better if you had actually went with that gut feeling. Don't live in fear of making a mistake.
If following your gut means taking a risk, then damnit, you take that risk everytime.
Historiography
"One misconception about historical study is that it is merely a string of facts, meanigless dates, and the names of often long-dead individuals, with little relevance to our lives and the times. Nothing could be firther from the truth."- Mark Epstein
History has influenced me in ways far beyond my imagine. Mr. Smith, my AP History teacher, has been the most influential person in my life. He's challanged me, to challenge myself. Maybe sometimes I don't give him the respect he deserves, and many of us don't. But he undoubtably has helped me grow in the last 2 years.
I'm not here to seek anyone's response or to offend anyone's beliefs. I write for myself.
But as a forewarning to all, as I challenge myself, you will be challenged even more.
Some posts may be controversial, and others may be more on a personal level.
Either way, this is my way to vent.
History has influenced me in ways far beyond my imagine. Mr. Smith, my AP History teacher, has been the most influential person in my life. He's challanged me, to challenge myself. Maybe sometimes I don't give him the respect he deserves, and many of us don't. But he undoubtably has helped me grow in the last 2 years.
I'm not here to seek anyone's response or to offend anyone's beliefs. I write for myself.
But as a forewarning to all, as I challenge myself, you will be challenged even more.
Some posts may be controversial, and others may be more on a personal level.
Either way, this is my way to vent.
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